Why do i feel that people keep looking at me like theres something wrong =QUIT LOOKING AT ME I HATE TO GUESS WHAT YOU ALL ARE THINKING!
LEAVE ME ALONE
And to the guy on bus 157 earlier working with the SAF(i think)...whats your freaking problem...stare at me all the way until i get down the bus...you still looking at me! FUCK OFF OK THANKS!
Today was presentation day for my IS module(ISP-Introduction to social psychology).
Before that, had a meet up with my group members...i thought i had everything prepared...but i'll touch on this later...
While in the library, suddenly i heard the song "Yi Shi De Mei Hao, from At the Dolphin Bay Drama, sung by Zhang Shao Han"(If wrong please let me know)
I looked down at the Atrium and saw a girl(or lady) singing it...right in the middle of the Atrium...She didnt sound that bad...actually it was sung pretty well...but what i admired most was her courage and confidence...she dared to do it...something which i may not be able to do at this point of time....
Seeing how she did it...i kept thinking...how do some people get so confident...i am trying to break out of this but it seems like the hardest thing to do. I really could use some help from anyone if they could give some advise.
Help me be more confident and voice my thoughts out freely...with no restrictions...hell if i could do it I think life would be so much more meaningful to me.
Back to the presentation...time for class and when my group member started the presentation, he did it well...like really well...and when it was my turn, MY MIND WAS A COMPLETE BLANK!
I MESSED UP THE WHOLE THING. I COULDN'T SPEAK! WTF IS WRONG WITH ME! I HAVE SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO SAY BUT IT JUST DOESNT COME OUT! I TOTALLY HATE MYSELF FOR LACKING IN CONFIDENCE. WHEN WILL IT EVER BE POSSIBLE FOR ME TO BE MORE CONFIDENT!
Seeing people able to present so well...i feel so jealous...i try to mimic them at some point of time, analyse how they feel and what they are thinking at that point of time...but it isn't an easy task...
Anyway...Survivor Exile Island was a good season. ARAS WON! Just the person i was voting for. Hate Terry...but its in the show only at least...probably because hes too good and cocky and arrogant and a spoil sport =\ but who am i to judge others
Danielle came in 2nd...yea yea yea...totally deserving...to me at least.
To confident people: I hate you yet i love you and want to learn from you.
Just make sure you are confident and not cocky or arrogant :) a little is fine but too much would be overdoing it and pissing me off.
Back to you...a whole day and i haven't talked to you one bit...you are totally out of my life already and its time to move on...if you think i miss you? Think again...I can get feelings out of my heart in just 1 night if i want to. Thats the power of determination and will power.
Although there may be some memories of the past, they wont be strong affection or affect my life in any way because i am able to move on and get past minor things.
Nothing else to say for now at this point of time...because life really sucks
-OUT-
posted by imbicile @ 5/16/2006 06:21:00 PM
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