the beginning or the end?

lost

Woke up at 7am...no problems as usual...its the 6am wakeup that kills me...got ready for school...and left at about 8.20am...father drove me to school...during the journey, i looked at the car drawer and low and behold...a roach came out...sorta startled me a little...but i let that go...2nd 1 i saw...yesterday i killed 1 that appeared outta nowhere too...well, after a while later, a smaller nymph appeared...this time, i lifted my foot and stepped on it...

Fast forward....lecture time, i slept...lol...seriously i dont know why i am so sleepy during the daytime nowadays...after lecture, i went to the library to wait for my next class to begin...my german class...while waiting, i read some magazines...and i got shocked...i read...if you feel sleepy during the daytime for a long time, its either diabetes or depression or some other thingy i forgot...i dont wish for it to be any...cos its all not good =\ BOOOO!!!~~

My insecurity level is at an all time peak...where do i stand in your heart? I wish i knew, what are you thinking? How much do i mean to you? How much do i actually know about you i often question myself...does the problem lie with me cos i think too much? Is it wrong for me to do that? All the why, what, how, when and where...so many questions..its neverending...hope its just me, myself and i being stupid by doing this...what is it that i feel? I think i know what i feel towards you but i dont know about you...do you feel the same way as me?
Shattered heart, shattered soul, lost now, not forever...

I would say it would be my own fault for now...when it was the holidays, i could do whatever i want...but now since school has begun, i am so tied down...i dont have time on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays...Saturdays and Sundays, i am not so sure about that...school really takes a toll out on me...i start in the morning and end at night...almost 12hrs a day in school...thats like 2x the time of what i used to spend...all the time is spent thinking of one thing...and only ONE thing...

Anyway, German lesson was fun, although i didnt know anybody...the lesson was fun...the teacher as usual was funny and interesting...she made it all good and worthwhile...maybe its just me but i have a strong interest in learning languages thats why i find that i should be able to handle it...=)

You MaKe Me FeEl oUt Of My EleMeNt!!

-OUT-

posted by imbicile @ 10/18/2006 10:35:00 PM