the beginning or the end?

2 word sums up life!

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posted by imbicile @ 1/29/2007 12:18:00 AM 0 Comments

Just For U to KnOw!

How long have we been together? 4mths+...seems like a long time..but yet it can be so fragile...everything ended in a flash...

No mere words can explain how i felt whenever we were together...alice in wonderland you could say...each time i am with u, i never wanna leave u...i wanna hold u ever so tightly...its like if i left u, i would be parting with my life...life has become so draggy when i dont have u around...with u, my life comes to a standstill...everything is just PERFECT...

It all ended too fast...or should i say i ended it too fast? I'm sorry for everything but its just that i dont have the time unlike during holidays...its like what u said...i think i'm treating u like a toy...when i need u, i'll be with u...or else u will just be tossed aside...guess i aint that good afterall...my weekdays are so packed...i dont ever have time on weekdays cos i brought it upon myself to be busy? Pretty dumb right? What about weekends? I get so tired during the weekdays that i just seriously dont feel like going out in the weekends except sit infront of my com and play games to waste my life away instead of spending time with u...

U ask why i keep things to myself? Cos i have been keeping everything to myself for the longest time ever...its a matter of trust i guess...who do i feel i trust? I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW...its obvious why...i seldom talk with my family...or at least we exchange 2-3 sentences per day at least thats all...

I never blog about our outings cos what we do i keep it in my heart...deep down in my heart...i dont need other people interferring into my life...memories are kept and locked up...they will be released when that time comes..

I planned many many things for us...but who knew this would be the end of it all...it breaks my heart as much as it breaks urs...i didnt wish for it but i think it would be best for u if i hurt u now by breaking with u than holding on and hurting u more...i aint that perfect someone...there is bound to be better around...u returned my presents to try and forget me...i didnt want them back but u still returned them...maybe u should have kept them and thought of it this way: "Freebies from a jerk...why not keep or maybe sell it"...ok enough with the sacarsm...know ur gonna be hurt again after reading that...my bad..my fault...i feel stupid, i feel dumb...i dont know how to love someone for real...i dont know how to take care of someone...

The ring will be our bond forever...even if we are no longer together...believe me when i say...
I LOVE YOU

There was no 3rd party that made me break with u i can assure u of that...i am just not able to cope with so many things at one go...pls move on in life...and if u ever need someone to talk to i will be there for u...or at least i WILL try...

Love will find a way.....to u...for u...

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posted by imbicile @ 1/23/2007 11:25:00 PM 0 Comments

Club for the 1st...not the last

Been a while since i last posted so i shall re-cap on my recent activities in brief...if i can remember them =) the best one in my life(so far) has just happened for me ^^

Wednesday(17/1/07)

My frens came over to my poly to crash my class...it was fun having them around so i didnt want it to end so fast thus i skipped my german class(mind u i was supposed to have a test) and went out with them...catched a movie then dinner at NYDC...it was still early so we didnt want to go back but then couldnt decide where to go so we went to a lan shop nearby...reached home at about 12.30am...then had to rush through UPE project...ended up sleeping so late...

Thursday(18/1/07)

Had to wake up early to go to class..ended up sleeping...was so darn tired...school ended and i was meeting frens again..this time to celebrate her birthday...went to Marina Square...arrived early with some other frens so we went bowling 1st...after that, we had dinner then parted with each other...i reached home at around 10.30pm...had to rush through project again..this time CPM...my mind was almost dead and it was blocked by a huge planet..so i couldnt think much...went to bed at around 2am...

Friday(19/1/07)

Woke up and looked in the mirror...beginning to see dark circles forming around my eyes...OMG PANDA!!!! FREAK FREAK FREAK...I HATE IT...being a panda is soooo not cool...unless u have fur that looks black and white and eat bamboo shoots everyday for the rest of your life...classes as usual...then end of school...went back home and went to have a hair cut...after that was meeting my frens at night again...couldnt go ice skating cos the rink was closed...met my frens at City Hall MRT...we had planned to go to a pub and just drink actually..
So we walked...but we catched a movie 1st...cos we didnt know where to go...after the movie...we decided to go to a pub already..we walked and walked...from City Hall...to Marina...to the esplanade...to boat quay...finally to clark quay...most of the pubs were closed already...so early they closed and it was a weekend already >.< ended up with 2 choices right in front of us...a club or a pub...i was hoping to go to a club =X but my frens didnt want...lucky for me...the pub was closing also HAHA...so we went to the club!!!!

Clinic was the place name...it was the 1st time i ever went into a club...it was super smoky(dry ice not cigs)...the music was blasting...initially went in, it was kinda loud...but i could still take it..then after that, we had 2 complementary drinks...GOD DID THAT FEEL GOOD...DRINKING+BLASTING OF MUSIC=RIDE OF YOUR LIFE!!!
My goodness...i have never ever had this kind of feeling before...going high with the music..it was just so...RELAXING!!!! This is the 1st time and it sure in hell not gonna be my last time...after the club closed, we went to a nearby McDonald to eat...then we didnt want to leave although it was rather late already(4am+ i think) so we decided to go lan shop again...gaming freaks arnt we...walked to a nearby 24hr lan shop...too exp($4/hr) madness to pay this kinda price...so decided to go Orchard...as it was still early, there was no train yet...so we waited a while...played lan for about an hr+ then all of my frens were almost dead already...lol~ it was a pretty hilarious sight...the lan session actually woke me up quite a bit...we left at about 7.30am i think...i waited for a bus till 7.50am...reached home at about 8.30am LoL...i slpt in the bus on the way home...hella crowded bus even in the morning >.<"
So now its the Saturday already...i reached home and took a bath shortly after...didnt feel sleepy so i played games till like 12pm...then i forced myself to go to bed cos i had a dinner at 7pm...i did sleep...until about 6pm my mum woke me up to get ready to leave...
Left for the restaurant and celebrated my "gong gong" 70th birthday...yea grand...70th is a cool number to live to...i am soooo tired and sleepy...
Even red veins have begun to appear in my eyes...UBER GROSS!!! I needa sleep real bad...gotta do lotsa work lata...

Projects finally 80% complete ^.^
Me need rest...next week going clubbing again WOOTTTTTTT I'M LOVING IT!!!!

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posted by imbicile @ 1/21/2007 02:25:00 AM 0 Comments

My head hurts

My head has been hurtin since wednesday...like somethin squishing the side of my head and its gonna blow up...freakin hell...something is wrong...finally completed REL project...that was 1 hella project...i didnt go to school on thursday cos i didnt feel so good...plus the weather was so beautiful to sleep in...it has been raining since thursday..actually wednesday...freak i cant think..

ATAMA ITAIIIIIIIIII T_T

TASUKETE KUDASAI!!! ~.~

All i wan to say...i failed my interview...sigh...my own fault...nobody else to blame but me... BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA...shin de mo iidesu...

Now time to plan on what language to take next semester...since i dont have anymore IAP =(

AME GA SUKI SUKI SUKI
YUKI MO SUKI SUKI =)

Oyasumi minasan

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posted by imbicile @ 1/13/2007 12:58:00 AM 0 Comments

Reflections...

Through experiences do we grow...woke up very very tired today...felt exhausted the entire day...the morning was a good one...it was cool..but somehow i still felt super warm...went to school at about 8.45am...almost fell asleep...like totally totally tired...started on our event...i wont talk about it...except it was a success(to us at least)...we got it over and done with ASAP...

After our event ended, i still had 3hrs before my IAP interview...i could hardly keep my eyes open...but i did...to wake myself up, i had to munch on food...

4pm was the interview..uber nervous...of cos, it didnt end like the way i wanted..the fault is not with the interviewer but lies with the interviewee...maybe i just wasnt prepared enough...after some reflecting, i realised that i shouldnt be blaming people...try looking at what i did wrong 1st instead...L-E-A-R-N and dont make the same mistakes again...

SLEEPY! I NEED REST OR I AM SO FREAKING TIRED EVERYDAY!

Still got so many projects pending...taking a toll on me...lookin at it from another angle...these are all challenges thrown at me to see if i am able to cope or succumb to stress and break down...No way will i bow down to stress...thats 1 thing that will not get to me..

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posted by imbicile @ 1/09/2007 11:21:00 PM 0 Comments

1st monday of the sch yr....

WhEeEEeEeeEee...just finished bathing...yes...gotta wonder why i bath so late...cos i came back at around 12am...must be outta my mind to come home so late when next day is still a school day...well...thats life i guess...gotta make certain commitments...

Day started off with me feeling very tired...i actually had to drag myself to the bathroom cos i made myself overslept...i was supposed to get up at 7am...then i told myself...another 5mins...then another 5mins....then another 5mins...by the time i got up, it was already 7.25am...

1st lesson was PJM and boy was it a drag...or was it not? Oh geez...i cant remember...thats what i get for not gettin enough rest i guess...short term memory =x i only remember myself buyin sushi during the breaktime haha~

Felt kinda sick throughout the day...only i dont voice it out...cos its a form of weakness =) who needs pity O.o

Oh yea...almost forgot...the day turned out for the better...it wasnt Yi Chang Huan Xi Yi Chang Kong =DD...5mins before PJM i received a call...turned out i was gettin a 2nd chance...i would be able to go for an interview to see if i can make it into IAP...i was estatic of cos...the interview is later on today...hope i will be able to answer the questions thrown at me T.T

Japanese class was a little difficult for me today cos i felt soooo sleepy...so it was kinda hard to pay attention...still able to catch most points though...after Japanese class, headed down to Orchard...kinda tiring and although i felt sick, i still went down...like i said...commitments =)
Had Swensen's breaded chicken...after that walked the stretch of Orchard for a while...saw a 7-eleven and decided to make a quickie stop to see if it had something i want..and they had it!!~

Absolut Vanilla...oh yeaa...i'm gonna collect all..they come in such cute small bottles...who cares if its alcohol...i will drink it sooner or later when i feel like it...KeKe...i just love the small cute bottles tho...thats the main reason why i buy it...to my surprise, they didnt bother checking my IC when i asked for that...unlike some other places which are so strict...i prefer strict places...so when underage people buy and they ask for IC please...the underage kiddos cant produce it and secretly i laugh to myself...i am finally 18 ^.^ well not exactly finally...been 18 for quite a while already...something which i am yet to achieve is my driving license...dont really know when i might take it...time will tell..

My hair is almost dried so its time for me to go to bed...still gotta get up at 7am again...ZzzZzzZ...
HELP!!!! ~.~

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posted by imbicile @ 1/09/2007 01:22:00 AM 0 Comments

1st weekend of the New YeaR

Its the end of the 1st weekend of the new year...what have you done? My weekend was a little crappy cos i didnt get enough rest..blaH~

LoL...got up early on Saturday to go back school and have a discussion on my project...i was early...and the rest of the group was not there O.O(except the group leader)...hmmm...what time did the rest come? Only 1 other came though...and it was 1 and a 1/2hr later...nice timing dont you think...the rest didnt come...after discussion i went back home and wasted my time in front of my com mapling...was deciding whether to play my Aquila character or Delphinus character...in the end i played my sniper aka Aquila character =x
Thats how i spent my weekend...mapling...targets were not met though...disappointed...at least i made new frens...

Still got lecture at 9am later on...gotta be up by 7am...sooooo tired >.<"
By 1pm later...i will either be disappointed or relieved by another thing...keeping hopes low or else it will be Yi Chang Huan Xi Yi Chang Kong(meaning happy over nothing)

Pending stress:
This week: I&E Event, REL report
Next Week: UPE video, German presentation
Week After: German & Japanese test

Might have forgotten some >.<" Thats all i can remember for now...cos i'm sleepy!!

Sore de wa...ima wa kore de owarimasu
Jyaa nee~

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posted by imbicile @ 1/08/2007 12:24:00 AM 0 Comments

SleepY

Got up from bed in the morning and left for school(of cos i did the usual before leaving)...wasnt late for class...early actually...haizz..i feel so sleepy now...bloggin at this kinda unearthly hour...
Just had a small tinsy bit of vodka...those small bottles that look soooo cute...i am gonna collect them all HA!~

Anyway...slept alot in school during lectures...cant seem to get myself awake...still in lala land...gotta find a way to wake myself up..well...skipping everything and on to the evening...it was a Friday so...ice skating!!~ Been a while...at least 2 weeks didnt skate...miss the ice o.O

Don't know why but i just love the sport...its sooooo cool(of cos..its ice) and fun~
Compared to when i 1st skated and now...i would say i have improved tremendously...still a little wimpy at times...but that can be worked on...i'm beginning to be able to overcome my fears...i used to fear roaches...but now, i dont really fear them...creepy crawlers...not really that freaky afterall...>.<" digressing...no link to ice skating at all...HaR hAr~

I am sooooo sleepy that i am gonna stop blogging now to go sleep cos i still gotta go back to school for project discussion later on...YAWNZZZZZ!!!

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posted by imbicile @ 1/06/2007 01:46:00 AM 0 Comments

Setbacks...

Life is all about setbacks...setbacks and more setbacks...its how we are able to get over it that makes us stronger...

(Sing U2 style) Its a beautiful dayyyyyyy......or at least it was...got back another common test paper...i expected to fail this super badly...like single digit score...but to my surprise, i only failed by 1 mark...AWwwwwwWWwW....how miserable can that be...but hey its all cool...lady luck was on my side i guess...i think i should have failed this paper...majority failed and i'm one of the majority...lalala...at least i'm not minority =x

After 1 lesson was breaktime...went to the canteen to order...i point point point point point...then the woman said $4.50!!!!!!! OMG SO FREAKING EX...*SLAP* dun anyhow point nxt time...then it was time for lecture after that...

Was hoping to get into IAP...but wont get in cos of some stupid criteria and they pick people of their own choice...well...heres my wish to them...i hope their bosses when deciding who to fire...they get lucky enough to get picked...or when its raining outside...they get lucky enough to get struck down by lightning...or they cross the road, get lucky enough to get run over by a huge truck or bus and their skull splattered all over the floor...hmmm what else can i think of...oh yea...when they climb the stairs till the final step at the top, they get lucky enough to trip and roll all the way down breaking their spine so they get paralyzed for life...remain a vege please thx...dont really need u around...i pick u to be my cursed soul...

The old way was better...why did they have to choose and use us as guinea pigs...TOO CUTE RIGHT SO CAN PLAY AROUND WITH US...well...fuck that thought...messing with the wrong cuties..laadeedaaa...

How dark can our souls actually be...the kindest on the outside may be the worst kinda devils you may never ever expect...and the worst devils on the outside may be the most useless kind of idiots alive

O.O Go FiGuRe O.O

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posted by imbicile @ 1/04/2007 11:23:00 PM 0 Comments

Back to school....

Yes...its back to school...work...whereever ur supposed to be you ought to be there or else ur just....SLACKING OFF!!!!

Holidays are over...back to serious stuff...studying...how boring can that be? VERY if i must say so myself...actually...school can be fun...if we can talk and laugh and talk and laugh...that would be fun...guess thats what we all want...fun...to relax!

Lesson started at 9am...or 9.05am cos teacher was late...pooey...1st day and ur late...tsk tsk...HA! Kinda crappy anywayz...got back 1st common test or 2nd if i shld say...didnt do very well...actually did pretty BADLY...barely made it...but still a pass none the less..thats not what i aim for...its too below standard...we all set specific goals for ourselves...some put them very high and some put them very low...for me...i set mine pretty high if i must say so myself..so if i dont meet it...the setback is pretty difficult to handle...guess thats the way life is...the only thing i dont get is how some people dont set goals for themselves...like worthless craps...IMO thats rubbish...

Ok...so I had tutorials and lectures...blah blah blah...how "cool" can that be...oh yea...we got a new IBS teacher...1st look at him and my impression was...Oh my...A gangster is here to teach us...and he went on to saying that he was just an adjunct lecturer...yea...pretty obvious in the later part...he went on teaching while people were talking...he didnt bother to stop people to listen to him...this is really a typical "i get money can liao...dun care u pass or fail" singaporean teacher...he teached for like 20-30mins only and let us off for our break...nice start(read this sacarstically)

After break was lecture for another 3 hours...well it wasnt that boring...currently, of all my 1 and a 1/2 yr in poly, the most fun lecture would be UPE i guess...thats the only lecture that i dont fall asleep...i think other lecturers shld learn to be like that and make their lectures fun and interesting...then people would probably not flung papers...when u are able to create a vibe, you are bound to get attention...from attention=ability to learn...

Waited in the library for 2hrs+ after UPE lecture cos i had german class at 6pm...i read quite a few books while waiting...time well spent ^.^

Everything is rushy rushy rushy...will we ever get some time to slow down our pace of lives...just for a day where nobody will do anything...cast a sleep spell on everyone to sleep for 24hrs...probably the next day would be a fresh new start for everyone...SOMEONE DO IT!!!

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posted by imbicile @ 1/03/2007 10:42:00 PM 0 Comments

NEW NEW NEW 2007 YEAR YEAR YEAR

posted by imbicile @ 1/02/2007 11:04:00 PM 0 Comments