the beginning or the end?

Birthday!

Today is my birthday...my 18th birthday...seriously my existance is so insignificant in my family...better off dead than alive i feel...people get presents and presents and more presents...what do i get? I will talk about it later...

Had alot of birthday greetings from friends...a big thanks to all of you...without you peeps, i think i would be at the top of a building preparing my final goodbye...to those that forgot...dont blame u...never did...never will...(ya right as if =P)

Woke up early to get to school as usual...the class was quieter than usual...cos my friends were scheming on what to do after class ended...whispers and whispers going on...of course they kept me out of it...thinking i don't know what is going on...but obviously i knew ^^ just had to play along with them =P...during class i went behind ZJ and halfway talked out loud...or not so loud...and gave her a shock...haha...even as i think about it now i still laughing lol =PpP...paiseh didnt mean it although now 7th month...keke...concentrate so much on work until ur reaction so big kakaka...
Teacher was going through revision for upcoming national day present...a test on the eve...best present eh? He gave us the question paper to try and *BLANK*...cannot even do anything...in the end, he teach us...as good as never teach...like gan qu tou tai lidat...teach so fast...aiya...this teacher like really got mood swing de...get over this module and pass it then no need see him anymore good le...
After that, went to atrium to meet the rest who skipped class just to prepare for my birthday "celebration"..(aww...touched) but i feel bad if they do badly just because of this...revision was important =\ Sang song, cut cake...felt glad, estatic, over the top...no words could describe the feeling...they gave me a present...an unconventional gift...a bottle of red wine...nicely wrapped in a lettuce like wrapper =P...then we went off for our field trip, 2hrs journey of bus ride travelling around Singapore seeing rich people live their ass off in great big expensive houses while we could only just get jealous over it...some houses were so freaking hell big...so freaking hell beautiful...so freaking hell...PERFECT...if i ever had a house like those...i might bcome a bum for life =P...it rained before the trip...which made it cold on the entire trip...plus the bus was superbly cold...the air-con was turned up to the max i think..
Oh yea...forgot to talk about the cake...chocolate...sweet...tasty...NICE!!~ There was more than enough cake for everyone because some didnt take =( Bu shang lian lei...jokin =P
After the 2 hrs+ of stoning in the bus ride, went back to school for tutorial lessons...1 hr..wanted to cancel but teacher say cannot so we stuck on to it and went to class...ended pretty quick and i left for home...i got no plans on my birthday...PATHETIC RIGHT? Trust me, my 21st birthday will probably be the same...

Went home to play maplestory...lvled my mage again..now lvl 42...slow leveling...just 1 more lvl to my staff...played till around 8pm+ my parents came back...i took out the bottle of red wine to show my mum and pretended to ask...
Me: "Where to put this bottle?"
Mum: "In the shelf there...,where did u get that bottle from?
Me: "my friends gave it to me"
Mum: "Why would they give it to u? Is it your birthday?"
Me: "Ya..Of Course"
Mum: "Don't bluff...(she looks at her watch and thinks for like 2 secs)...Oh ya...its your birthday...why didn't you remind me"
Me: "Is there a need? If u remember means u remember...if u dont then forget it"
Mum: "Cannot...must go buy cake now..."
Me: "Dont bother..."
Mum screams to my dad: "Zing tian shi lao er de shen ri leh...wo dou wang ji"
Drags my father out of the house and my lil brother follows along to buy a cake for me...my lil bro chose the cake for me...another chocolate cake so i had 2 chocolate cakes...

Every other family member(including my uncles and cousins) celebrate their birthdays with ME going along to their functions and giving them birthday greetings...but i get none in return...they get SHITLOADA pressies...me? i only get from my friends...i live my life within my friends...my family and my relationship=CUT OFF...Blocked off by the tallest wall ever...reaches all the way to the sky...outer space...the entire universe...i doubt we can ever be close...seeing families that are close make my heart shatter...i dont have a family like that..i will never have a family like that...what's wrong? I wish i knew...

-OUT-

posted by imbicile @ 8/02/2006 11:43:00 PM