the beginning or the end?

Lost the drive to game...

Yes, you read correctly...this super crazy gamer has just lost all drive to play games...more on why further down...

Woke up early...actually i dont even know if i slept throughout the entire night...i was dreaming and dreaming and dreaming...it was a weird dream which would never happen in reality but i liked it none the less...i tried to get the thought out of my head while i was sleeping but i just couldnt...the countless times i woke up...but i didnt feel tired...so i just got up at 7.30am...and went to take a bath...after i got out of the shower, my eye felt itchy..left it and didnt want to rub...then went to the mirror to take a look...uh oh...eye started turning red...my left eye..on the left side of the pupil...the right side was still white...but soon after, the whole eye turned red...bloody red...i was freaking out to myself in my room...ArGH!!! WhaT is happening!!! Should i go and see a doctor or leave it...i had a test real soon...decided to leave it as it is..just closed the left eye for like 10mins...it felt a little better...then i went off to school...when i reached school, the redness seemed to have subsided...great feeling...

Day of my 2nd test..hadnt exactly prepared much for this...got the paper and read through the questions at 1st...great..what i had studied...or i thought i did...yea..i did...but didnt really know how to elaborate on the answers tho...a pass is for sure...but how well? Dont really know...

Went home after we had another revision tutorial for APM exam...then i started mapling...this is where it gets tricky...i played and played...and left my laptop in my room...logged on to my sniper acct...i wanted to just heal my character while i trained my sin on my desktop outside...so my stinky, playful lil brother thinks its funny...he enters my room and does some things on my laptop...i didnt know what was happening until he came out and ran to me and started with the cheeky smiles to me...i immediately went in to my room...opened my laptop cover...and saw my sniper...NAKED! MY LIL BROTHER HAD THROWN ALL MY HARD EARNED ITEMS AWAY...AND ALL OF IT WAS GONE! PEOPLE HAD ALREADY TAKEN IT AWAY AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO! THE ITEMS TOTALLED UP TO A WHOPPING 50m+ WORTH OF MESOS! I GOT SO FUCKING PISSED I RAN OUT AND SCREAMED AT HIM AND STARTED SMACKING HIM REAL REAL HARD...AND HE STILL THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY! I AM SO FUCKING PISSED! I GOT A STUPID BITCH ASS MAID AS WELL...TOLD HER SO MANY FUCKING TIMES NOT TO LET MY LIL BROTHER TOUCH MY LAPTOP AND SHE JUST WATCHED HIM DO IT! FUCKING STUPID IDIOTIC SHITASS BITCH!

After this incident, i totally lost my mood to play maple already...so i thought i could play another game...so i went to dota...god knows why i also lost interest in it...i just didnt want to play any games....WHY DID IT HAVE TO HAPPEN?? WHY?? FUCKING WHY!$!@#!@!#
SHIT I NEED A LIFE THX!

-OUT-

posted by imbicile @ 8/11/2006 10:13:00 PM